Dard Ka Maza b Ajeeb hai Door hai woh Phir b dil Kay Kareeb hai Khata hai bas abb so jao Us ke tasveer Neend Sa Kareeb hai Log toltay hai sub kuch shorrat o dolat say Dil apna Aaj kal bas ghareeb hai

Hate mornings like this in general. Cold, dark, gloomy like my heart. Yes it’s still aching. Like little pangs of ache that strike that I need to pull back on. Everytime I do it tugs on me.

One of the best mini letters ever…. I think of you almost everyday. I miss some things about you. I want to call you up and chat but I know I may create a bad habit once again that I seriously can not afford in anyway. I promise-that I care about how your heart aches […]

how does one go back and record all the memories and the moments? some stay in your head so clear and vivid-like you can just close your eyes and step back right into them. others so far away pushed back that even if you tried with all your might youd catch just a teeny tiny […]

Life’s a whole bunch of things. What it shouldn’t be is blahhhh. But it happens. It’s happening now. It’s happens mostly when you can’t afford to financially or physically make something happen. Like right now I want to book a something far far away but it can’t happen. Ahhh too much depressing thoughts. Another time

Some moments keep flashing at me. The taxi ride to a mall in Dubai and I got Out and the warm air hits me. This happened once When my moms there and the second time with a stroller in the trunk. The humidity near water and passing bridges. The newness of pushing myself to do […]

I want to be so exhausted at times that I wouldn’t need a sleeping pill, an allergy pill, a natural pill, a few glasses of wine, or drunk enough, a warm bath or a few puffs. Yes what would it take to be that tired asides a death or betrayal? To have the luxury to […]

If I get buried I want it to rain as soon as I am under ground. Then only will I have been forgiven and at peace. If I am burned and you hold my ashes in your hand-I hope to be spread thru an open field full of purple or white flowers. Lavender preferably but […]

What was the best part of last year? looking forward to my trip that was to include dubai, pakistan, sri lanka and thailand What was the worst part of last year? how i had to end the trip early-so dubai and paki-due to negative circumstances What was the biggest surprise of last year? how at […]

Sometime I’m tired of all the balance that needs to be done. Too much tight rope walking and balancing. I’m in the circus. I always am I think. When was the last time I didn’t have to balance a thing? I don’t rem. at all. And I have a more than decent memory. Days where […]